I was riding in the car only a few short minutes ago and the song If I Could Write a Letter to Me by Brad Paisley (yes another country song) came on. As I listened to it I got to thinking what would I have told myself if I could send a letter back in time. I of course couldn’t send a letter to myself as a little kid because I wouldn’t be able to read but I think I would send the 12 year old me a letter that went something like this….
Danielle I know that your only 12 and moving to a new house and a new school seems like it will be the end of the world but it’s not your going to make it, I can’t lie and tell you that it will be easy you are going to feel like the world around you is closing in but don’t be scared stand up for yourself and always fight for what you believe is right. Please Danielle don’t let those around you bring you down and use you. You’re the most wonderful person and what others think doesn’t matter don’t try to please them just stay true to who you are never lose sight of the fact that these days won’t last forever they are just temporary things that will make you stronger as you face everything that is yet to come.
Danielle don’t be so trusting of people that call themselves friends, bad things happen to you when you stop trusting your parents and started trusting these people. As crazy and out of touch that you think your parents are they are so worried about you when you stop coming home at night. Please don’t break their hearts they worked so hard to give you everything they thought that you needed. In the end when everyone leaves you, uses you and takes advantage of you they will still be there with faith in their hearts that one day you will pull yourself together and do great things.
Danielle I know your dad doesn’t talk to you and tell you he loves you as much as you wish but he does. He loves you more then you will ever imagine. He will be your biggest supporter and one day your going to join the Coast Guard and your dad is going to be there, right there when you graduate from boot camp, he is going to be there when you have your first child and you will see a whole different side of him I promise. One day you will realize that he always always loved you even under his tough demeanor.
Danielle please don’t miss the opportunity to spend time with your Granny hug her every chance you get, talk to her, ask her questions, learn her story because one day you will look up and she won’t know who you are and you’ll never get the chance to do it again. I know you busy with your friends and being a kid but there are things you will just never get a chance to redo.
Danielle your mom is just as crazy now as she was then but she means well. One day you will learn that she only was doing the best she could because she didn’t have a book. She too will be your biggest champion cheering you on. Sometimes the words don’t come out right but the feelings are nothing but love. She isn’t trying to keeping you from doing what you want but trying to protect you from the hurt the world can bring. She will keep you laughing and the lady that drives you nuts now will be the one you call on through all the rough patches in your life, she will be the one that will help to get you back on your feet time and time again, she will wipe your slate clean so many times. One day you will spend hours talking to her on the phone so many hours that you have may fall asleep and wake up and she will still be talking. I know you can’t imagine it now but you will talk to her almost every day when your older.
Oh and Danielle you will have the most beautiful son. He will bring your life so much light and purpose you will tip toe into his room at night and just look at him with amazement. Your going to be a good mom and your little boy is going to love you so much and you will love him so much it hurts.
Well Danielle live your life to the fullest, listen to you parents, love and respect yourself, break ups and heart aches will come but stay strong because people love you. You will be a strong woman and a great mother. Oh yeah your going to have one hell of a ride along the way but I don’t want to spoil all the good things that are coming I just want to prepare you to embrace who you are and what you stand for.